Day 67 - Total weight loss 2stone 12lb.
Well, I finally did it..........................am now in the healthy BMI bracket. So I guess that makes me normal! How chuffed am I? Real food is creeping ever closer and I can't wait.

I know that in my last blog I was feeling pretty deflated and ready to give up but I'm please to say that I've stuck at it and tried really hard to stay focussed. Boy am I glad I did because I now know that in another two weeks I'll be ready to go on to the management programme - assuming I manage to lose another 6 to 8lbs during that time.

And that means I can have something to eat to Christmas dinner - woo hoo!!!!!

For the first time in ages I am absolutely loving going shopping. I can now walk in to any shop and find something to fit me be it in a size 12 or 14. Previously I'd go shopping with my skinny friends and get so frustrated at the lack of 'adult' sized clothing available. You would regularly have been able to hear me cursing silently under my breath about the fact that shops don't cater for big girls/real people. But now I guess they do. Oddly enough I'm still having trouble finding the right balance in tops - I have the torso of a size 12/14 but my boobs have more or less stayed the same size! Very odd but my husband's happy.

Last night I said to him that I don't really want to lose too much more weight but I do want to tone up (sorry Joolz, I know I've been a crap gym buddy lately. Promise to put in more effort from next week) and to highlight this I stood in front of him and did a slow twirl so he could see that I don't need to lose a lot more. His said "Well stop breathing in then so I can see what you mean". Cheeky sod! I actually wasnt' breathing in at that point - mind you he took a lot of persuading that I wasn't and it was only when I showed him by really breathing in that he agreed with me. Although he doesn't agree that I should stop losing weight, especially having seen me pulling it all in - his response being "Bloody hell you look like Pamela Anderson when you do that. FANTASTIC"

I did have to advise him that whilst, in an ideal world, it would be lovely to have Ms Andersons physique the downside of that would be me constantly having to remind men that I do actually have a head and am not just a talking cleavage! Still, I'm already pretty used to that so.....

I'm very intrigued to find out more about management and how it works and, being totally honest, I am a little apprehensive about going back to real food in case I put all the weight back on again but I just have a feeling that it won't happen this time. I hope I'm going to be ok but I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

For now though it's onwards and downwards - for my weight that is.